🙅Unraveling Week 9 of Master's Degree

1 May 2019


Where do I even begin? I mean, I owe it to this blog and to whoever who is kind enough to drop by and check if I'm still human or half-way to becoming a corpse. I am so sorry for not posting that many updates as I wanted.

I've been unbelievingly busy and it has gotten to the point that I'm mostly working in front of my laptop during every waking hour I have. I think the one day I actually have all to myself are on Fridays and that's about it.

Life, eh?

Anyways, just as I've mentioned earlier, it is now Week 10 in the semester and many of the assignments deadlines are dangerously close. I have to think twice or a gazillion times if I want to procrastinate and try my luck that it won't hit me hard on the face later. Trust me, as a student, you have to schedule everything even time for procrastination so you know how much time you have left (but usually you don't).

Last week was a little bit stressful, to be honest. Our bedroom air-cond sort of decided she had enough serving us so she broke down for a couple of days. I'm telling you if you don't have either an aircond or a fan to ventilate your room, you-will-die. Or close to one because for almost 3 days straight, I had about just 1-2 hours of sleep that didn't involve me waking up in a sweat and contemplating to sleep outside on the sofa where it's 2x hotter. But now, she's all patched up and behaving well. This leaves me a happier, not-so-much sleep deprived me in the mornings.

If we travel even further into last week, I was also fortunate enough to watch Endgame right after class was over. It was AMAZING and I hope so much that I can watch it again. I watched it on the first day the movie was out and the crowd was so supportive. Again, the movie??? 100/10. 10 stars out of five.

I've also bought a new book that I hope to read till the end. It was an impulse purchase sort of thing but I'm not regretting having it in my possession.

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This is a rather poor update of my life but I'm more than glad I can fill in you guys with what's going on lately. I'll update again soon!

xxx
 


I HAVE FINALLY GRADUATED FROM DEGREE!

Give me every word for "overjoyed", "relieved" and "ecstatic" from the dictionary and neither of them can truly describe how I felt about my degree graduation earlier this week. I wish I can just shout out loud about how unreal everything felt (and still is, to be honest) but all I can say are my many "thank yous" to everybody who helped me to get to where I am now.

Just look at that happy chubby face!

Le classmatesss!


Thanks to God, my parents, lecturers, friends and myself, 3 years of nothing but hard work are paid off and I received the awesome Vice Counselor Award (ANC) during the 8th graduation session this Wednesday. Since it's been almost a year since I was done with my degree and applied for masters, I initially thought I wouldn't be up for celebrating something in the past. Still, I was proved wrong. Nothing can beat the feeling of seeing my parents' and lecturers' faces when I got up that stage and claimed my award.

Thank youuuu so much from the very bottom of my heart to those kind souls who were there for me! I only hope for the very best for you in return.

:)

🤳 Taking a Break from Twidder!

8 February 2019


Hi everybody! 

Not long after I published my most recent post, How I'm Coping with Exam Results (FYI Not So Well), I was scrolling through my Twitter and Instagram non-stop, trying to fill up the empty and bored void inside of me when I realised something.

First of all, Twitter does not make things unbearable nor does it ruin people's lives. Just to set some things straight, I'll say this: it's an amazing platform to connect with my friends, getting news at a super ridiculous speed and sharing funny tweets.

But on another side of the spectrum, we have the negative and never-ending debates people engage in and can't seem to stop going on about them and dominating my feed. Sometimes, I can't help but get swallowed up in the whole drama that I have no care for. It's a nerve-racking experience. Just this week alone, we have stuff about Syed Saddiq, Emma Maembong, etc. Like... I didn't sign up to participate in all of this. I just wanted to know what my friends are doing and spam them with cats and bunny pictures!!!
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I basically snapped on that day and I finally decided that I needed a break from the app, even just for a while. It's not just about this week's drama... but Twitter netizens have of late been rather unbearable and toxic for me to get along with.

Of course, there's also the fact that I'm pretty sure I'm a Twitter addict. I don't like to admit it and it's even worse when I can verify this fact myself. There could be hundreds of things that I could do in a day but scrolling for the 1001th time on Twitter isn't exactly helping me to get things done. The whole "twitter getaway escape" was to help me get my time management on my phone set straight and perhaps, a little break to take my mind off from unnecessary drama. I reached a point where enough is enough and packed my bags to clear my head.
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I stayed away from Twitter for 4 days. I managed to restrain myself from tapping the app open in that period of time with little to no trouble at all. I was expecting more challenges, perhaps several episodes of me breaking down from "Twitter withdrawals" or an epic inner battle with my consciousness to keep me away from achieving my initial objective. However, no such things happened. I'm not going to lie though, I did feel some sense of emptiness at some point of the ordeal, especially when my friends texted me about something that happened on Twidder and I had no idea how to relate to the context. Still, I actually felt at peace and by the end of the fourth day (my birthday), I could stay on Twitter for short period of time to respond to a few wishes and left it again to do other businesses.

I think grabbing this break away from Twitter was a great idea. If I ever feel that things are getting too overwhelming on this social media platform, I know that I'd be okay to just leave it until it has reached to a level that I'm more familiar and comfortable with.

What do you think? Have you ever felt like taking a break too? Tell me your thoughts!
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🧟‍♀️ How I'm Coping with Exam Results Day (fyi, not so well)

1 February 2019



You know what, this is exactly why I don't ever EVER set new year resolutions or even tell anybody if I have one. For people like me, they're made just to be broken or left to perish before the year even actually begins. In my case, I've left this sparkling new blog of mine abandoned for a good 3 weeks without a peep or sign of life. I NEED TO GET A GRIP. ARGH!

To be really honest with you, I have my reasons (here we go again). Well, primarily just two.

Reason 1: 
I absolutely have zero ideas on what to talk about without sounding cliche, boastful and pompous, or worse, an until bore. I WRITE FOR PERFECTION and inspiration has not blessed me with its presence for that amount of time and thus, I was absent. I swear on my life that when I truly write (fueled by inspiration, motivation, and a brilliant idea) and into something, I do it till my brain cells are fried and smoke comes out of my ears. Yes, exactly.
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Reason 2: 
I have been in utter despair these last few days when a friend of mine told me that our exam results are coming out NEXT WEEK, first thing on Monday. And to make matters even worse than it already is, it will conveniently happen on my BIRTHDAY. Like whyyyyyyy... Now, whenever anybody mentions of my birthday, a chip of my soul gasps in horror and wilts away. I can't think straight, not at least until I know how well I did last semester. Once that unfortunate wretched day has passed, my soul can rest in peace and I can continue to leech more YouTube videos in bed.
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With that explanation, you have your answer from the title of this blog post: no, I'm not coping so well. If you're a close friend of mine then you probably understand why I've been gloomy for a while. I just honestly can't stand long semester breaks. I don't want to make myself sound like I haven't tried being busy because I have, and it didn't last very long. I've read a few books, wrote some pretty TERRIFIC poems, watched all the movies that I wanted (I still haven't found Matilda on the Internet), and binged through dozens of YouTube videos, yet, it didn't feel very fulfilling.

Now that the new semester is a few weeks away, I have just enough strength to slowly but steadily build momentum in reading journal articles related to my course, pick up my Mandarin learning app, and basically doing stuff that is bringing my mind back to life. I CAN FEEL THE OLD WANI COMING BACK.

Anyways, that's about it for today's update! I hope to write more once I find an interesting topic to mull over and write. I have the drive to write but not the topic Hope you liked this one!

In the meantime, do me a favour and remember me in your prayers. HAHA
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P.S.
Pssssst! I'm just going to put this out here. I'm open to writing collaborations with other bloggers if interested. I think with the amount of time I have (there's plenty on my lap right now), I would loveeee to contribute my writing and work together. Email me here to chat about it: syazwanizzati@gmail.com

🤭 My Current Guilty Obsessions

9 January 2019



Before we even start with today's post (that was due two days ago but you didn't know that.... okay now well you do), let me just be very frank with you: I'm the most boring person to be around. What I mean is, just a year ago, I didn't have interests or hobbies that could be the spark factor in a conversation.

Not until just very recently, I started watching drama series and catching up on recent movies, and picking up new hobbies (they sort of died when I started my master's degree). For today, I'll be listing out my current obsessions that I'm in love with. Spot any that you can relate!


1. Poetry writing
YES, this is something super brand new that I sometimes catch myself doing in my spare time. Honestly, I've never been the sort of person to take a few moments to appreciate beautiful words and feel emotions on a deeper level. It's funny how that completely changed over the past 1-2 years and now I'm even collecting as many poetry books I can get my hands on!

This is an excerpt of one of my poems:


I used to start writing a few poems just out of practice for a couple of contests I wanted to participate in. That's why in my draft, each poem is entitled with a "P" (meaning practice) followed by a sequence number. Now, I write poems out of interest especially after listening to songs that click with me or even craft short verses for my friends. 


2. Epic Seven (Game)


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Honestly, if I'm in somebody else's shoes and take one good look at myself right now, I won't be convinced that I'm much of a gamer. It's not that far from the truth too because I don't have enough patience one needs to play any games through till the end. I gave up with Sims Play after failing to get my Sims avatar pregnant for 3 weeks. Not to forget that I'm pretty crappy at gaming too! I've accepted that fact a long, long time ago.

Late last year, I was introduced to a new mobile game called Epic Seven and since then, I've been hooked to it every other day. It's really addictive and for someone who has the attention span of a fly, it's interesting and challenging enough to keep me going. Ironically, I haven't passed Level 10 yet and it's been 2-3 months since I started playing this game. UGH!


3. YouTube Channels & Videos
Since I'm on my long (SUPER TERRIBLY LONG) semester holiday, I have all the time in the world to binge through YouTube videos I've been wanting to catch up on. Here are just some of the few favourites in my subscription list:
  • Lucy Moon
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I absolutely LOVE Lucy's laidback and personal chats with her viewers. She talks from everyday issues to relationships, makeup, girl-to-girl advises and shares frequent vlogs. And I just like her accent (that's pretty much the whole reason really but she's cool too!).

  • Shazz Zainuddin
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When it comes to this particular YouTuber, I don't even know where to begin. HAHA. She's super quirky and funny in all of her videos. Her personality is really likeable and honestly, she can light up your day anytime.
  • The Fitness Marshall
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I'm at my laziest when it comes to dragging myself out of the house or let alone my own room. However, I'm moderately conscious of my health and well-being (note: sometimes) and so I'm continuously finding ways to motivate myself to still exercise even if it means not having to go outside. I've been following this YouTube channel for 2-3 years and let me tell you, it is FUN. You should seriously check them out whenever you want to work out from home!

4. Drama Series
  • How I Met Your Mother (HIMYM)
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I'm currently in Season 4 and I'm loving all the drama and humour that make this whole series AWESOME. I just wish I knew about HIMYM sooner. AHFKLAJFLDAJLK!!!!

  • Game of Thrones (GOT)
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I'm down to the second season and I have two episodes left to go. I've been postponing my GOT Season 2 "journey" experience because I just CAN'T bring myself to watch what will happen next. I'm emotionally attached to my characters. I AM WEAK. T_T
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Alright, so that's basically all that I have time for in today's post. 

What's YOUR current obsession? Share them in the comment box below!

🚗🌫I Have Moved (Again)

4 January 2019


Oh no, she has done it again!

Okay, before anybody freaks out and call the authorities to have me arrested for moving so often, I can justify why I did what I did. Or at least I can try.

To be completely honest with you, I only moved to Wordpress (my previous blog) because my actual blog on Blogger had problems with the coding when I was messing around with it. To make this story short, I don't have access to it. Besides, I've always loved Blogger's simple writing platform which is why this will most probably be my final blog resting place (wow).

Anywhoooooo... Like I've promised, I'm going to update this blog twice a week to really keep this blog up and running as it used to be.

New blog posts on: Mondays & Fridays

In the meantime, don't forget to follow me and drop your own blog link below! I loveeee to read blog posts so I welcome yours!